One Of Those Moments
One of these days, something is going to happen to you that gets your attention. It doesn't have to be any big moment of earth shattering importance. It may be a small thing. But it will cause some interior discomfort of soul - maybe a little, maybe a lot. It will impact your life, make you sit up and take notice. Make no mistake about it. It will shake your comfort zone. It will make you ask questions. You will wonder if things are really the way you thought they were. What in the world was that? Why is this happening? What does it mean? What is it going to mean for me, for those I love and to whom I'm committed?
You will question everything, including the nature of reality itself. The answers will come to you. They will open up in front of you like a trail of crumbs. But it will, small as it may be at first, make you realize that things are changing forever. And there is no turning back.
There may be more than one of these "epiphanies" in a lifetime. Each time you will wake up more, see more, understand more, search harder. The excess baggage of life will jettison itself. Including people. Interests you had will morph, take another direction, or die entirely. Don’t worry about that. Let go and don’t try to put it back the way it was. In some cases you won't mind. With other things it will be painful. You will make mistakes.
You will adapt. Sometimes you will go the distance walking wounded. That can be by Divine appointment. In some ways it doesn't really get easier either, but each phase prepares you for the next, and it all becomes increasingly intensely interesting. These phases are like rocket boosters, dropping away when no longer needed. No lift off without this.
As they say, these will be the moments you have to choose between the blue pill and the red pill. In some respects the decision will be a no brainer. Sometimes it comes with gut wrenching angst.
At those moments a line has been drawn in the sand. Once you cross it, things will open up to you. Maybe not the way you think they ought to. The Creator always has in mind your very best interests. So the point here is like an old song that says, “Dance in the darkness; slow be the pace; surrender to the rhythm of redeeming Grace.”
I wish someone had dropped this into my awareness when I was about twelve.
It’s been on my heart to share this awhile, for whoever may benefit by it.
Godspeed, and may the Wind be at your back.
"Therefore we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, yet our inner self is being renewed day by day. For our light and temporary affliction is producing for us an eternal glory that far outweighs our troubles. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
(1 Corinthians 4:16-18)