Just a quick one –
To feel or battle doubt need not be necessarily condemned as sin; it is rather an emptiness that begs to be filled with right understanding, the answers of questions, or a need for information that brings puzzle pieces of the bigger picture into view and puts them together. This is something I had to learn from experience – after a long struggle due to buying into the idea (from previous reductionist religious/spiritual programming) that doubt was a “crime punishable by death,” so to speak. Once I could see it for what it is, then the answers it represented began to fall into place as well, and much needed direction came into view. Never criminalize yourself for doubting, but pray and keep on praying – in spite of your feelings.
Someone needs to hear this, so I am posting this remark. Pass along as you wish.
"Whoever keeps His commandments remains in God, and God in him. And by this we know that He remains in us: by the Spirit He has given us." 1 John 3:24
All things may be possible, but are all things according to God's will? Not every "dream" is from God, and may be something that will take you from His dream for you and the reason He redeemed you - to be conformed to the image of Jesus Christ. Pray for His highest good for you, not the temporal goods or goals of this world that end with the grave. Pray for discernment and the wherewithal of the Holy Spirit to follow it.