Into The Stillness 1
"I will hear what God the LORD will speak: for he will speak peace unto his people, and to his saints: but let them not turn again to folly." Psalm 85:8.
Often it’s as if there is a swarm of religious hornets in my mind. The only thing that kills them is stillness, solitude, prayerfully contemplating God’s Word.
I think this has to do with unraveling from the snarl of a lifetime of “Martha programming” to the simplicity of a Mary of Bethany way of being. There came a time when inwardly a line was drawn where “active involvement” in many ways, especially where organized religion is concerned, needed to come to a screeching halt. It's not over.
Most adherents of Institutional religion do not comprehend this. The expectation is machine like active status from cradle to grave. But in my own case it is as if a rewiring and reset is the call of the Holy Spirit. I suspect that may be the case for many of us, if we will receive this word of peace. We may need to listen and go with that - not allow ourselves to be guilt tripped by the Martha mind.
I was reminded that, in the film 2001 A Space Odyssey, the controlling computer HAL had to be dismantled lest he run to ruin the whole mission. He did everything he could to stop his demise. HAL is like the Martha programming in us. It tries to stay in control. It is the inner hornet’s nest! Buzz, buzz, buzz!
So for awhile until the deprogramming is finished, we tend to try one thing or another without really understanding why we feel so obligated to keep on a track that is no longer how we are to be about the Father’s business!
My desire is to no longer be dominated by that but for the Holy Spirit to dismantle it and “rewire” me entirely. The process must be cooperated with. That synergy is only facilitated
by faith - which hears the Lord’s directive to cease striving and be still. And we surrender ourself quietly to His work.
It comes down to not caring who thinks what about it. This kind of “renunciation” of flesh busyness is the only thing that allows the Work to be completed. It is a surrender, a cessation of striving. Otherwise confusion and inner turmoil result impeding His Work and a renewed sense of direction once it is accomplished, and there is an interior go ahead to proceed with His direction.
There comes a point when participating in institutional religion can seriously disturb this process which is akin to giving birth. “Martha” says, "Get up and get busy and do something that we define as useful." Meanwhile you KNOW inwardly that the process of inner deconstruction and then reconstruction and restoration must, as when giving birth, have full attention!
This is where I find myself these days on the Crossroad. I don’t think it’s an intersection many have come to or understand in "Churchianity." I am not saying that makes me better than anyone else. However, it's important for us all to allow one another the space needed to facilitate the Holy Spirit's work within our lives.
comes a time when we may hear the Lord say, as He invites us to sit at His feet, "But one thing is needful: and Mary hath chosen that good part, which shall not be taken away from her." Luke 10:42.
Thanks be to God for working His good will within us individually, according to our needs.